Saturday, June 12, 2004
okay. i think i have a problem. it seems like the only time i update this thing is at like five in the morning. but anyway...lots of things on my mind right now.
the car situation: so the 5-speed project is still up in mid-air as to whether it will be done by tomorrow. if not, then i have no idea how i'd get back down to school...unless he'd be willing to work on it sunday morning (which is highly unlikely). still saving all my emotional reactions to the swap for AFTER i get the car. i know the moment i get excited, something more will go wrong. on top of everything else, the shifter console/boot didn't come in today, so i'm having it shipped to u of i and just installing it there. still need to do a much needed oil change, coolant flush, and power steering fluid. ack. oooh. and finish up the box for my trunk.
the future: wow. i have no idea. to be honest, it seems like i'm looking waaaay ahead sometimes and other times just barely a few minutes in front of me. sometimes i just feel driven to succeed not only for myself, but to make sure when i have kids...i never have to say 'God, i wish i could give that to you' but can't. i never want to be discouraged like that. i mean, i've always been a very competitive person. and this is really no exception. it's just a matter of finding where monetary success equates my job satisfaction and happiness. i just don't know.
clothes: so i FINALLY went to the mall today. at first, i can admit i was really disappointed. but by the end of it all, i ended up going over my budget. and probably to everyone's surprise, the stuff that i'm returning all comes from hollister. whooooaaa. yes, that's right. returning something from hollister. just haven't been very impressed lately i guess. after a good four hours of mall-ing, i still want to buy so much more stuff. welcome back compulsive shopper personality that i thought i got rid of.
siblings: honestly, no matter how many times your parents will try and shape your siblings to not make the same mistakes as their 'guinnea pig kids'...like myself, they will always do the same thing. gotta be discouraging for the parents, but for me, i finally go...damn. that IS really annoying. is it really that hard just to listen? i guess i can see where the whole 'you're gonna be just like your parents when you grow up' thing comes from. has anybody ever noticed that? we start to get annoyed with the same hooda that they get annoyed with...and then pretty soon it snowballs into talking, walking, and just overall...BEING just like them. scary thought. but there is definite truth there.
fraternity: oh man. so i will forever be in debt to them...monetarily. question is..how do i convince my dad that $800/semester is a worthwhile cause? i have no idea. in the long term scheme of things, there are possible connections, resume builders, and friendships there. in the short term, i don't go to any exchanges really and spend that much time at the house. but do i really need to? i'm a part of them nonetheless. and would my 'rents rather shell out that dough so i can go on exchanges and dilly dally around the frat house all day...or actually think of it as something beneficial to my future? exactly. i never want to deactivate...although i do admit it is a hefty sum, i think the pros outweigh the cons. aside from making few, but awesome friendships...how can you put a price on getting connections to a great job or grad school?
real world: i've rekindled my love for the show after watching a couple episodes today. i've definitely been out of the loop for awhile...it was nice to just sit down and absorb. just now i was actually looking at real world/road rules blogs...'cause yano...i'm a freak. i guess it all just kinda started back in the day with lori's page...for obvious reasons...but it's really interesting to see what the cast members have done with their lives since the end of the show. i'm curious to see how the san diego cast follows suit. especially jamie. i still want to be on that show desperately. how cool would that be? maybe one day some fan will read my blog and be like hey, cool. but until then...i'll just sit back and admire. you know, i never really put it together that the current casts on real world and road rules are basically my age now. growing up i was always like wow, they are so much older than me...but now, they are all like 20. how crazy is that? i guess they just always look/seem older. or maybe i'm just stuck in the past. who knows.
alright, well it's REALLY late now. i could go on forever...but then what would i post about tomorrow?
g'night everyone!
Anyway. Love you. Have fun at ska-ool.
now all you need is an ipod...oh wait...i have 2. haha
you best be comin' down sometime soon! luf you